freya46

So, I'm using the old laptop again. I simply can't snag the wireless with the Acer. And I HAVE to dump Vista. ASAP. I have enough trouble dealing with XP. I simply can't DO Vista. And the damned thing has already frozen twice and blue screened once. That has never happened to me with XP. Maybe I've just been lucky. But ya know.....

As soon as 10nameslater has some time, he'll come over and set things to right. I have faith in him.

Went to the Neuro yesterday. Hawise wasn't able to take me so I got the name of a gentleman who drives for the CLSC. Cost me $30. there and back. Sounds like a lot, but it would have cost me much more with a cab. He's from this area, knows a lot of floks from the building. He knows the other Slabotsky family. *grin*

Spent a good 15 minutes with my neuro. I see him every three months so it's not a long session. I asked some questions which my brother's attitude to my planning on Birthday Bash brought to mind.

1. Nothing I have or have not done has caused my condition. Not even my weight.
2. I will never work again.
3. There is a chance that if the discs heal themselves and return to their proper (and fully paid for) abode, it could relieve some of the pain caused by the pinching by the vertebrae which are busily decomposing. That would mean a lessening of meds. (YAY)
4. If I am careful about spending the majority of my time on my back, I should be able to travel occasionally. I will be able to go out for dinner occasionally. Have cot and memory foam will travel. :-)

He is pleased with my decision to stop driving. I figured I'd save my kids having to make that horrible decision that so many of us have with older parents. I remember how my brother and I felt about our father driving.

He is pleased with the weight loss. He agrees that I can make my own decisions about what I can and cannot do. But I would appreciate being reminded to lie down occasionally. It's hard to remember that I'm broken when it doesn't hurt.

I picked up my mail before I went yesterday and I checked when I got home. There was a form from the Govt. about renewal of my handicap tag. Naturally, there's a part that he has to fill out. Heh. Figures. I'll fill it out and mail it along to him. :-) At least I don't have to fight with the govt. this time.

I feel well enough to go for a haircut tomorrow. I am so looking forward to it. I'm walking around with this halo of gray around my face. FEH!

I'm going to be joining my Aunt and cousins for Rosh Hashanah. She's gonna be upset about the haircut. She likes the halo. I don't think her vision is too good. Oh shit. She's still driving.!! She called me for her brisket recipe. Luckily I remembered it. Can't find the damned recipe card.

I may just stay up tonight. I closed my light at about 3 this am. Woke to the alarm at noon. Took my meds, made a couple of calls and went right back to sleep. Was awakened by the CLSC lady at 3pm. I could just have easily gone back to sleep after I had lunch. It's weird. I can stay up for 24 hours and other than yawning occasionally, I have no bad effects. At the same time, I can sleep for 14 hours (never had the opportunity to push that number) just as easily. I know it's the drugs, but still. It's very weird. I have to be up at 8am and I might be better off without sleeping. It doesn't matter what time I close the light. If my body isn't ready, I can't sleep. Weird.

I've been on the increased meds for about 10 days now. I can feel the difference every day when I get out of bed and start moving. How do I make sure not to do too much. I KNOW what too much is. But when the pain is gone, there's nothing there to smack you upside the head to remind you not to do "that". Any suggestions will be welcome.