freya46

I'm sitting here, trying to make sense of my cousin's death. Apparently his aorta "exploded". Don't have all the details yet. It happened on Sunday I believe and once again, my son had to call and let me know. At least this time I had a cell phone and he didn't have to start tracking my down. I'm sorry son, you shouldn't have to be the one. :-( (((((HUGS))) And I am grateful that you did.

As my brother said, and A. mentioned in his LJ, it makes one far more aware of one's own bio-degradableness. I don't know what to do with myself.

When it was my mother, I had been expecting it and, sadly, I didn't really like or love her. I feel both for my cousin (actually my cousin's son) and I'm at a loss. No parent should have to bury a child. It's not supposed to be like that.

I sent my youngest an email. I don't know if he'll even read anything from me. I'll call my brother and ask him to send it. Doron needs to know.

I'm going to go Put away my stuff from the weekend. I can't seem to stop crying. Fuck.